Becoming insanely paranoid
Feb. 27th, 2004 10:47 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mockingbirdqI belong to a "birth club" for women who were having babies around the same time, and it's been really good for asking dumb questions I wouldn't dare ask my doctors and comparing notes, so to speak.
But I think I'll avoid it for a while. I just found out 2 of the babies belonging to members have died of SIDS in the last week.
It makes me paranoid. One of the moms was even breastfeeding and carrying her baby in a sling, looked down and he had just stopped breathing. I keep reassuring myself that I'm following all the APP guidelines - no smoking in our home, sleeps on his back, etc. But now I'm scared to go to sleep because I want to keep checking Todd's breathing.
I guess I'm just starting to realize how much I love him. Forget every intense thing I've ever felt for a lover or soulmate. My emotions for my baby boy are so intense and overwhelming. How do parents survive these feelings without going crazy??
But I think I'll avoid it for a while. I just found out 2 of the babies belonging to members have died of SIDS in the last week.
It makes me paranoid. One of the moms was even breastfeeding and carrying her baby in a sling, looked down and he had just stopped breathing. I keep reassuring myself that I'm following all the APP guidelines - no smoking in our home, sleeps on his back, etc. But now I'm scared to go to sleep because I want to keep checking Todd's breathing.
I guess I'm just starting to realize how much I love him. Forget every intense thing I've ever felt for a lover or soulmate. My emotions for my baby boy are so intense and overwhelming. How do parents survive these feelings without going crazy??
