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Today was an extremely bad day, which was odd considering it was the last day fo school with students (contract days tomorrow and Sunday though). I'm still crying.

I found out that a teacher I thought was my friend really hates me, hates my students and especially hates having a classroom next to my room and wants me gone. Even better, she is in a position she might be able to make this happen, since her best friend is marrried to the assistant superintendent.

After having her yell at me for 20 minutes in front of both our classes, I held it together until students left and then I lost it. I'm still crying.

I just don't want to teach anymore. I love my students but there is no way I can ever get along with some of these other teachers. I'm tired of them hating me just because I work with those "damn wetbacks" and I'm tired of knowing I have to pretend they aren't prejudiced and send my kids into their classrooms to be ignored and failed. I sick of this...

What do I have to do to stay home forever? I'd even move in with my in-laws at this point. Anything.

Yesterday I was content...Today, I want a job where I never have to work with another adult.